Your not going to pay for my dinner??

So I had a dream last night and then while John and I were praying this morning, God gave me revelation- thought I would share.

Dream:

I was walking up to Outback Steakhouse somewhere in the United States. Kris Vallotton was a ways in front of me and kept turning around and waving at me. Finally, he slowed down enough to where him and I were parallel and he asked me if I wanted to join them for dinner. I did (who wouldn't!!) When we got to the table, there was a lot of people around that I knew from Bethel and it seemed they were a part of his staff or something of that nature. Anyway- I ordered this extravagant meal and LOVED every minute of it! Then it came time to pay. The waiter brought the check to Kris. Kris then proceeded to pass it around so everyone could see how much their order was. So people started laying their money in a pile in the middle of the table. Funny thing about this was that we were in the United States, but the bill and everyone was paying in "pesos." The bill got to me and my meal was $450 pesos (roughly around $40.00) And I remembered that John had my purse in the car and he went somewhere with Kelly. All I had in my pocket was $200 pesos. (Not enough) So Kris wasn't going to pay for my meal, John wasn't there, and all I had was half of what I needed to pay for my portion.........I put my $200 pesos in the pile- then I woke up.

Revelation:

So John and I were discussing discipline tactics for our children this morning. We were not on the same page really. One thing that has really always bothered me with our kids is Dis respect/talking back (I CAN NOT STAND THIS!!) Well, they have been doing this and instead of me giving them choices, I have resorted back to my old nature of control. (which looks like, "YOU WILL DO WHAT I SAY, AND YOU WILL DO IT NOW) and that just has not been working out for me really well. In fact, while talking this morning with John things just seemed impossible. I felt like I was telling God," this is impossible for me to change the way this makes me feel. " The whole circumstance, feelings, me seeing that I needed to change- felt hopeless. So while we were praying I got the understanding of my dream.

Kris being a spiritual leader in my life and Outback symbolizing "Good Food"- I felt like God was saying, " Your spiritual leaders are not Your source, your husband (he wasn't there) is not your source, and you can not do it on your own (me not being able to pay completely) So my only source that can bring HOPE into this situation is God. Total Dependency on God, even for change in my attitude with my kids. When things seem hopeless, sometimes people just "aren't gonna do it for you."

Anyway- It was an answer for me this morning and gave me hope! Thought I would share in case there are others that need "hope" in any area that seems hopeless. Reminded me of who my source is and where my Joy comes from when my kids are pushing buttons :)