Hanging on the Blood

In a dream I had recently John and I were with Denny and Danette (The amazing couple who we are going to serve in Mexico) and a group of people. In the dream I seemed to know everyone, but I only remember Denny and Danette, John and a friend of ours , Brad Nelson. Denny told us that we were going to the top of a mountain nearby for some team building exercises. When we got to the top he gave us directions for what we were going to do. He showed us a red rope and started explaining that he was going to hold one end while we took the other end to run and jump off a nearby cliff!! I was thinking in my head, “THIS GUY HAS LOST HIS MIND!!” I was the only one thinking this way. So people started taking the rope and running off this cliff like it was no big deal- laughing and roaring all the way off the cliff. It got to my turn and Denny handed me the rope. I looked at him and said, “sorry Denny, but you have lost your mind!!” “There is no way that I am going to do this!!” Then I proceeded to tell him all the “what if’s” about going off this cliff. After I finished murmuring to him, he simply looked me in the eye with a soft smile and said, “Jessica, you just need to trust me.”

The dream flashed to the next scene where I was plummeting in mid air!!! I felt something harnessed around my waist. As I looked down at my waist, I noticed that the red rope was tied around it. It was like I finally had a revelation while free falling- I thought to myself, “Well dang, If I woulda known that, I would of totally jumped!! I didn’t notice they were tying it around them. Then I woke up.

The dream is about me trusting God in a step of Faith when I don’t see all the ways things are going to happen. The red rope represented the Blood of Christ, and was tied around my waist (a vulnerable area). That is what’s holding me during the time of Trusting in Him- His word is faithful.

The Christian life is meant to be impossible. The moment we can do everything on our own is when it ceases to be CHRIST-ian. We need to live in such a way that we are constantly dependant, suspended and vulnerable to the Holy Spirit’s provision and protection. The safest place in the Kingdom is to be at the front lines of battle, in the same manner that Jesus sent out the seventy as “sheep among wolves.”

“Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the Land and feed on His faithfulness."
"Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart.”
"Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass,
”He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday.”
”Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him; do not fret………….”
Psalm 37:3-7

When John and I made the decision that we were moving to Mexico in August, everything was working out beautifully!! Things were smooth, support was flooding in, and everyone felt that this was the right time for us to go. Then, we received a couple emails in regards to support…… A couple of our main supporters had to change their committed amount due to life circumstances. This was hard to swallow. Things just days earlier seemed to be flowing and now they seemed to be drying up. Was this the right time to go?
Later on that week, after nothing was working and I felt that my hands were tied, God spoke. We were taking the kids to the park and I decided to stay in the car and soak a bit. I noticed that I had my bible in the car- I asked God, “could You please give me something encouraging, something to hold on to in this season?” He gave me Psalms 37:3-8. This was just what I needed to hear for that moment. I began to dig in to the depth of what the Lord was giving me.

TRUST- in Hebrew means to be secure, feel safe, and be care less or care free. God was telling me, “Jessica, you need to know that I am going to bring to pass the desires of your heart. You need to be secure in who I am, feel safe with what I have told you, cast all your cares about this situation on me, and be care free. The last part of that verse, “dwell in the Land and feed on His faithfulness,” reminded me to feed on everything that He has done for me. Feed on the testimonies- that is what will sustain hope in this situation.

DELIGHT- means to be pampered, to make merry over, or make sport of. God was telling me to relax and let Him pamper me!! Let Him make merry over me!!

COMMIT - As John and I studied this word, we found that it means “to Roll, or to Roll onto.” I thought to myself, how do you get “to roll” from “Commit? There are a number of passages that used this when talking about rolling the stone off of the mouth of the well. A friend had just given me a word during this season that is so fitting with this. She said “Jess you really need to knock it off (meaning stop picking it back up and worrying about it) Your worry is getting in the way of what God is trying to bring to pass.” Essentially I was acting as the stone over the well that needed to be removed in order to access the flow beneath.

REST- There are two things that I am not really good at: 1) being still and relaxing 2) Being quiet. This word in the Hebrew means to be silent before the Lord. Don’t repeat what you have already told him. Stop the idle murmurings. This is exactly what I was doing!! Every time support would drop, I would bring it God and say, “WHAT NOW?” and every time it looked impossible- I would let Him know! As if He doesn’t know! LOL!

As I’ve been resting God has been providing. A friend of ours called and said they wanted to commit to us monthly $300!! I would have never expected!! Another friend of ours who pastors a church in Nevada called and said they would take us on as their missionaries that they support monthly!! God is good!! We still have a little more to go that we need to raise for monthly support, but God is on the move and working on our behalf- We will leave at the end of July to live in Mexico as ambassadors of the King’s Domain!